love, this hurt my heart more than you know,
there will be nights that feel cold and empty. i have been in them and have struggled through them. live for and embrace these nights. dance, do what you need to feel whole again. watch tv/movies, throw glitter everywhere, take a bubble bath, write a poem or short story, wear your comfiest n cutest PJs, make a cup of tea. when the night is over, take pride and pleasure because you made yourself whole again. you did it. live for these nights where you are able to heal yourself.
words and self talk have more power than you think. words have saved me. live for the magical words that come to you in the form of song lyrics, or text messages or emails or even the ones that come out of your own mouth. love them and live for them.
there is no such thing as a silly or dumb reason to live. constantly remind yourself of these reasons. hold onto them. live for the sunrises, the chirping birds in the morning, summer bike rides along the water, the breeze in your hair. live for the warm cookies and hot cocoa you shared with your siblings while the snow piled up outside your front door. live for the the chances you take and the memories you keep in a little journal under your bed. live for these little things that make you happy.
live for your passions. you love breakfast? live for those silent mornings of bowls of hot oatmeal and cups of coffee by your side. buy all different kinds of breakfast foods and try new recipes, open a cafe, make breakfast for others. live for these passions.
live for being busy- boredom is a silent killer. i like to find little distractions like painting my nails, doing my hair or makeup for no reason, going through all my old pictures or desk drawers. spend a little time going through your music library and make a great playlist, and dance to it. watch youtube videos, do anything that will keep your mind and body busy.
learn to love yourself. i can tell you that this is one of the hardest things in the world. i can’t even say ive fully achieved it yet, but you are a human and you are beautiful and have so much to live for. you matter. your thoughts and dreams matter. you are so incredibly relevant and you deserve to be happy. your story is nowhere near finished. you are beautiful inside and out. make it a goal to recognize that you are full of glitter and fairy dust and koala kisses and you can and will conquer the world. live for greater self-love. live for being yourself and the comets and stars and galaxies within you.
it may seem like nothing is going right and you have nothing to live for, but even if everyone leaves you, i will be here. i will stand by your side and give you a shoulder to cry on. i can try to make you happy when i can or when you are sad. live for those that make you happy, and the countless other people you have yet to meet. live for the beautiful world you have yet to see. there is too much left to do. one day, you will be sitting on your front porch, eating that precious bowl of cereal, with a smooth smile on your face, you will have a beautiful family and friends and pets you love with your whole whole heart. and you will be so glad you chose to stay alive and witness each moment that you have been given.
if none of this helps, don’t be afraid to reach out. you are not alone and you will get through this. hang in there and stay strong, beautiful. i love you
